I’m just curious……Do you ever want something so bad that you feel yourself tense up with emotional awareness because in your mind it just isn’t happening? Ok OK I meant fear, frustration, anger and concern. My goodness! It seems like that is happening more than I want it to.
I read that it is my old blueprint rising up in disagreement to making a change and I accept it……at least consciously I am accepting that this is happening. But, How to I over come this booger of a bad blueprint?
I will read, and do the exercises despite my feelings. I resolve to make this change. I will choose to relax in my mind and set aside the concerns and frustrations.
As my title suggests, I do feel like I am in a war. Not only do I want to make the changes that I learn about with the Master Mind Keys, I want to continue to also stay on top of my other responsibilities that support myself and my family. This is a juggling act but I know it is well worth it to become the person I am designed to be.
Tonight is Tuesday and I sat for my fifteen and did Hannel’s exercise. He was right…… it was very difficult. If I focused my attention to the wall and had my eyes opened, I could deflect thoughts. But I found this to be tiresome and my eyes would close. Immediately I would find myself pondering this thought or another. I would pop open my eyes, resolve to focus again and BOOM. they’d be shut again and onto a new thought.
Yep! This is an exercise that needs some work. I had been pretty happy with myself for my ability to sit still but much of that must of been from habit learned by sitting in church as a youngster.
I am quite amazed that the things I am reading by Hannel makes sense. The first read is always quite deep but then it gets easier. Highlighting will be tomorrow’s task on the lesson and I found last week that really made it sink in even deeper.
To all my Blueprint War buddies,
Let’s keep up the good fight….We will win because “they” need us to!
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